What a difference since this last post; Car driving lessons update, there has been a slight change with my driving later that day on 16th June. (Although my instructor would say a big change.) I am thinking as in small change to how I feel the car currently. As you know, my concern is knowing when to change gears, whether up or down. I can now feel when it is time for the gear to go up, so a sense of achievement on that part. 🙂 So I am happy I can now tell this way, even though on the dashboard it will tell me too. Although I now have this reassurance, my confidence is still low and my anxiety high. I feel an extra lesson a week would help me, but sadly the instructor could not fit me in as I observed my phone to see if I may receive a text to see if I was available, should there been. So I knew he just could not fit me in.
The lesson I had the week after, (23rd June), I had still improved from the previous week. Although I still had anxiety, it was better and my confidence was a little better in places too.
I was driving with prompts when I needed them and in places where I had no experience in situations I was in, I was guided. To say I was now driving on a more public road and when permitted, at higher speeds, my anxiety levels kept at the same level with just the odd peaks. With my anxiety in check the best I could, I felt a bit more in more control with what I needed to do.
When I was in areas where I could do up to 60mph, I could see I was doing nearly 55mph, but my instructor said I did 57mph at one point. He could see I was not comfortable with this, as I warned him prior. He said he would not have put me in this situation, if he did not think I could do it.
What I did not think I would end up doing, but I did, was to drive myself home. Although relieved when home, I felt good. 🙂
I tried a different pair of trainers for my lesson, having my others as a back-up, just in case there were not suitable. I turned out I was ok with them and an added bonus that I could feel my feet touching the clutch, break and gas pedals, so this gave me some reassurance as a deaf person. It has made me realise I rely on sense of touch more than I thought.